Mechanical

Whisper a Secret to Me

Inspired by ntnrmlgirl.

I am truly fascinated by what I find at PostSecret. Some of those secrets are horrifying, others are sad. All are intriguing.

Post your secrets here. Anonymous posting has been opened up and I'm not logging IP addresses. What are you afraid someone will find out?
(Anonymous)
I don't think I can love another woman because I still love her.
(Anonymous)
I often tell petty lies about my past because it doesn't seem interesting enough.
(Anonymous)
I'm involved with a huge project that has barely begun but I'm already convinced that it is doomed to failure.
(Anonymous)
I often think about walking away from it all; never to be heard from again.
(Anonymous)
Sometimes, parenting is so hard that I wish I had given up custody of my children.
(Anonymous)
I hate owning pets, yet I have them, and I love almost everyone else's furry friends. Not birds though.
(Anonymous)
There's been so much hurt and betrayal in my life from those I trusted most, I can't cry anymore, and that scares me. It makes me wonder if I've lost the ability to truly love.
(Anonymous)
I sometimes wish that I would die because I am afraid to live and I hate cowards.
(Anonymous)
I've been married for five years. I thought we were happy. Three years ago, we went through counseling. It was only a patch. In the past six months, she's told me that when I got her roses for Valentine's Day, it broke her heart because roses are played out. She's told me that she isn't so sure if she's even in love with me anymore. She's hit me out of anger.

I want to fix things, but I fear that she finally broke the love I hold for her, and the past two weeks have been especially painful. I don't know what to do. Part of me wants to just up and leave, move to another state, start fresh, no ties - but we've got a house and a good deal of debt with our names on it and I'm afraid that it would be really messy. Part of me still holds out that we cna fix things, but I don't know anymore. It's so scary to me.

Now, she's about to take a business trip with a guy that I know she had a crush on, and that has me nervous that she's going to cheat on me. Even if she does, do I really care? I don't know anymore, and I can't figure it out.

Add to it all that she only ever seems to talk when things are bad, and never about anything good, and it's really hard to know what she's thinking about. :(

I can't get to sleep at night anymore because of these thoughts. I wind up watching a bunch of animation on adult swim and hopefully passing out at some point in the night.
(Anonymous)
Wow, I feel for you, man.

and it's really hard to know what she's thinking about. :(

Why not try and ask her? It seems like you don't have much to lose from doing that. She's likely asking the same thing in her head.

Seems like knowing things for sure is a hell of a lot less torturous than assuming and guessing the worst. You deserve the truth, whatever that may be.


Good luck. I'm really digging these secrets because I find a part of myself in each one of them, thanks.
(Anonymous)
I went through a week where I couldn't stop having sexual fantasies about you.
(Anonymous)
I've been having an affair with a married man for the past 2 years. He is my rebound from a failed nine-year-long relationship; I'm his band-aid that allows him to stay in an unhappy marriage. He doesn't want a divorce because of his children, and I don't want him for a relationship because he's a cheater.
(Anonymous)
I (male) push myself to be bisexual to get chicks. And go pretty far with it. Welcome to the 1990s.
I've considered making a post like this in my journal. I still might. I'm half afraid of what might be said. However, I think I'm going to now. Yay for inspiration.
(Anonymous)
I wish I knew why I keep running away - from everything. Yet I'm afraid of what the answer is.